|I have trouble remembering that I've changed sex
||[Oct. 10th, 2009|10:04 pm]
Good and not-so-good advice about gender.
I'm MtF and have recently finished a three-year transition, and I'm having trouble remembering that I have changed my sex.|
This is a problem because I feel much happier when I remember when I'm female, and sullen and cranky when I assume that I'm still male.
The one reliable method of remembering, or at least the one I've found, is to stop for a minute, clear my head, and centre myself in my body with breathing, movement and so on. But this is form of meditation is hard to do when I'm out and about.
Part of the problem is that for years internalized the message It is impossible to change your sex. You can try, but all you'll do is destroy your life.
Complicating matters somewhat is that the range of my gender expression includes a large portion of "butch." Sometimes I can feel very much at home, handsome. sexy, and all dappered up and being mistaken for a nice young man (cissexed or transsexed). And sometimes I try to present as butch and want to peel it off like it was stuck to my skin.
Anyoneelsehave the problem that you forget that you're not stuck in the wrong gender anymore? Any advice on how to remember that I've changed sex?